The Lost Creat Cole McCade is a Book Slender Angry Part Asian Yeah that about sums me up Hi I m Cole Xen Whatever you want to call me both are true and both are lies
The Lost Creat Cole McCade is a Book Slender Angry Part Asian.Yeah, that about sums me up.Hi I m Cole Xen Whatever you want to call me both are true, and both are lies My pen names are multitudes, my nicknames legion Tall, bi queer, introverted author of a brown ish persuasion made up of various flavors of Black, Asian, and Native American I m cuter than Hello Kitty, bitter than the blackest coffee, and able to trip over cats in a single half asleep lurch I m what happens when a Broody Antihero and a Manic Pixie Dream Boy fight to the death, and someone builds a person from the scraps left behind Beardless, I look like the uke in every yaoi manga in existence bearded or not, I sound like Barry White About half my time is spent as a corporate writer, and the other half riding a train of WTFery that sometimes results in a finished book Romance, erotica, sci fi, horror, paranormal LGBTQIA and cishet diverse settings and diverse characters from a diverse author.Sometimes I shout about things on the internet Usually intersectional feminism and marginalized voices, and whomever s punching down in those directions today Sometimes human sociology, the psychology of sex and gender, and my own gender non conforming arse he him, by the way Sometimes I get really mad at Stephen Hawking and nerd out all over the place about hairy black holes, and believe it or not, that s not a terrible pun or even worse innuendo.That s it I m a huge dork My humor s so dry it could empty oceans I m a native Southerner from the New Orleans area with zero Southern accent I m a mess of multi ethnic, multi cultural, multi lingual influences I have two cats I wake up at daft hours of the morning to go running I crochet terrible, lumpy things that never really turn into anything I m older than you think I look I m much shy than my fury makes me sound signifying gods only know what, but probably nothing Recently I decided, at 36, that I needed to restart my life and move cross country, so I tossed 75% of my possessions in the trash and randomly trucked it to Seattle I m in love with books and music and technology, and they war with each other for dominance and sometimes come together in a beautiful confluence Most of the physical books I own are strange, obscure, out of print, overseas imports, or any combination of the four Most of the physical books I used to own were destroyed in Hurricane Katrina, and have been replaced with the infinite library on my Nook My wallet has a dangerous attraction to anything with pages it flirts and teases and gives its all, until there s nothing left but emptiness and ruin.There will always be things you don t know, and I won t tell.But ask me late at night over live music in a seedy bar, and you might just get an honest answer.or you can poke me via Email blackmagic blackmagicblues Twitter thisblackmagic Facebook facebook xenle Website Blog blackmagicblues Tumblr thisblackmagic.tumblr And there s my Xen Sanders SFF Horror profile author showYou can also get early access to cover reveals, blurbs, contests, and other exclusives by joining the McCade s Marauders street team at facebook groups mccadesmaraud. Darkly haunting erotica with the taboo appeal of V.C Andrews If the romantic character study is a genre, this fascinating contemporary novel is its exemplar McCade digs deep into the difficult topics of rape, incest, and sexual abuse via the remarkable voice of Clarissa Leigh VanZandt Publishers WeeklyThere s something wrong with Leigh.She s known it her whole life.Darkly haunting erotica with the taboo appeal of V.C Andrews If the romantic character study is a genre, this fascinating contemporary novel is its exemplar McCade digs deep into the difficult topics of rape, incest, and sexual abuse via the remarkable voice of Clarissa Leigh VanZandt Publishers WeeklyThere s something wrong with Leigh.She s known it her whole life She knows it every time she spreads her legs Every time she begs for the pain, the pleasure, the heat of a hard man driving deep inside She s a slave to her own twisted lusts and it s eating her alive She loves it She craves it Sex is her drug, and she s always chasing her next fix But nothing can satisfy her addiction, not even the nameless men she uses and tosses aside No one s ever given her what she truly needs.Until Gabriel Hart.Cold Controlled Impenetrable Ex Marine Gabriel Hart isn t the kind of man to come running when Leigh crooks her pretty little finger She loathes him She hungers for him He s the only one who understands how broken she is, and just what it takes to satisfy the emptiness inside But Gabriel won t settle for just one night He wants to claim her, keep her, make her forever his Together they are the lost, the ruined, the darkness at the heart of Crow City.But Leigh has a darkness of her own A predator stalking through her past one she ll do anything to escape.Even if it means running from the one man who could love herd leaving behind something precious to her than life itselfIGGER WARNING 18 This book contains material that may be triggering or deeply disturbing to some readers, including scenes discussing or detailing rape, physical and emotional abuse, and incest Please focus on self care and, if this book is triggering to you, do not be afraid to put it down and walk away, or skip certain chapters Be good to yourselves C. Popular Ebook The Lost If you saw her on the street you would probably walk right past her. You'd likely even go out of your way to avoid making eye contact or getting too close to her. This girl with the dirty hair and sad eyes. No one sees her pain, or acknowledges the hurt that's as clear as day on her haunted face. All they see is a girl who isn't up to societies standards. You'd judge her just from a glimpse, and then you'd forget her. Too bad she can't forget herself. Her name is Leigh, and this is her story.The Lost was not a pretty story. There is no fairytale ending or a prince charming coming to save the day. There's only Leigh, on her own trying to survive a cruel life, but with no idea why she's even trying. Her story is raw, and gritty, and it takes you to the dark depths of this life that we would rather pretend don't exist. I found myself enthralled with this book and I hated each second I wasn't reading it because of real life interrupting me. Stupid real life. But when I was reading, I was completely involved in Leigh's story and felt like I was a part of her and on this path to destruction along with her. The author wrote this story in such vivid detail that it was impossible for me to not feel like I knew these characters better than I know myself. The grip that this book had on my heart while reading, and even now after I've finished, was one of the reasons I in love with it. Leigh was a broken character and has a life most people wouldn't understand, yet she was easy to relate to and to connect with. Were the actions she took something people would accept? No. But when you read her story you truly get a sense of understanding as to why she would set herself on a destructive path. I wish I could give it a full five stars, but the ending was just too abrupt for that. I needed more! At least just a little more to get a sense of closure before it was finished for good. But the bottom line is that this is a huge recommend from me, and a book that I absolutely loved. Though I will warn that this story is not for the faint of heart and any reader should take note of the trigger warnings.